My patience run out these days at work, at home and even with friends.

Work is purely no fun. Last Friday we played coolies, carrying cartons that weigh a ton up 3 storeys... without lifts. I applaud ants, really. So therefore, I am still aching everywhere. And you can't say it's because I don't exercise enough. I have aches because my employer is inhuman.

Grandma is a worry. Her attitude is a worry and so is her salvation. She is the red sea I'm waiting for God to part, the Goliath I'm waiting for God to help defeat. That time when she suffered, it seemed like she learnt kindness. But it wasn't so. The truth she knew seem to be fading behind the clouds.

Yay tomorrow is Labour Day. No work. Gahaha.

Yay. Finally I'm done renovating my food blog. Blogging has taught me some HTML. Woe to me for not paying attention in web design class when I was in school. Now I realise the importance. Heh.

And if you're wondering from where I stole the time to be fussing about my blog pages, I am on MC. Because I am sick. Again. I'm pretty much tired of falling sick, of having to suffer physically in this mortal body.

I know many of you are going to have exams soon. Tragic isn't it? :X I'm here praying and you have all my support.

Death, be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so ;
For those, whom thou think'st thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleep, which but thy picture[s] be,
Much pleasure, then from thee much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee do go,
Rest of their bones, and soul's delivery.
Thou'rt slave to Fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell,
And poppy, or charms can make us sleep as well,
And better than thy stroke ; why swell'st thou then ?
One short sleep past, we wake eternally,
And Death shall be no more ; Death, thou shalt die.

John Donne Holy Sonnet 10

I was whining bout Jurong Swimming Complex long time back and today I finally got to go! It was pure fun! We had to rent these large floats to enjoy every part of the complex. The floats aren't hard to get on but Terence flipped over twice trying to get on it. Then he toppled over after finishing the slides, many times. It was clumsiness at work. Hilarious it was.

We went on the slides which are really tall (highest was 4 storeys) and visible from far away. I felt giddy at the end of it. And then there is this huge drain of water that has a strong current called the Lazy River. It's meant for us to get on our floats and glide. The 'river' is circular so it's like never-ending. Then most exciting section was the wave pool. Every now and then, there would be artificial rain and machine generated waves in this pool. It's really cool cos it's built slanted just like how it is at the beach. And the waves are pretty strong. It was a wonderful time. Who said adults can't have fun?

Funds are running low and I might extend shopping fast to May. I don't think I can keep it though.

It's past mid April and I'm still stranded in my own world thinking time hasn't passed. And now having blog frequencies decreased (due to laziness), its time yet again to recollect my thoughts.

Recently I've been stealing too much ice cream and brownie breaks and diving into the temptation of fried mushrooms. I love mushrooms. They're my favourite food. So because of irregular food and too much junk, I'm losing appetite seriously.

I've learned something this week. That it is never to young or old to serve God. Yet age is what we like to use as an excuse to hide in our comfortable little hole. In just last 2 to 3 weeks, God has shown me Moses who was called when he was 80 and Daniel and Joseph rising to glory when they were in their teens. In other words, all the days of our lives from the day we live to the day we die, we are called to serve him, to sacrifice our time for His glory. All the days from when we were born till we see Him, we are to surrender our days to Him.

A pastor shared this with me.
Philippians 2:1-4
If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

The first part of the passage talks about the importance of unity in the body of Christ. We are one body yet many parts but still having the same love and purpose. And that is to share the love of Christ and fulfilling the great commission. Such unity brings joy to the leader of the ministry and even more joy to the ultimate leader, God himself.

How often do we put ourselves above others. Paul says to "do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit". It is clear enough. How often have we forsake other for the sake of ourselves or worse still, exploit others for our own benefit. Considering others better than yourselves is not implying that we should sink into thoughts of being one who is inferior. It simply means we are to put others above ourselves, to place others priority above ourselves and thus looking into the interests of others. Note that we still have to take care of ourselves. But almost all the time, we take it to the extreme of taking care ONLY of ourselves.

A great way to apply this is to switch to a mindset from thinking how perhaps a friendship would benefit you to how you can be a blessing to this friend. This attitude should be taken everywhere we go. Instead of thinking "how will church benefit me?", rather, think about how you can serve the church. Even in your families, in the workplace or in school, think about how you can benefit others over what good others bring you. This is one step towards Christlikeness as we are called to be the salt and light of the world. How should we live then as a Christian? Being self-centred or others centred?

Having said all that, I am ironically not looking forward to church camp. Should I just hide away and take my time for a good reflection or go mingle and be crazy again. Everybody probably knows this, but I am quite a lone-ranger. I don't delibrately hide but I just don't show. People say females are social creatures and obtain support in cliques but I think I lose more support if I remain in all-female groups-. Which brings me to wonder if its me or the girls around me. I love shopping and clothes and all but I can't carry out a fashion conversation or a beauty tip discussion which is probably why I don't talk to most girls. I have little talent in discribing feelings so I'm quite blunt and straight to the point. Somehow most girls can talk a whole hour about just one person. I can't unless its God. Maybe I am too sensitive too but girls seem to irk the fact that I "don't care bout my looks" by swimming and running often and having no discipline in sticking to my 3 step regime. And I eat alot. Actually I do appreciate all the kindness girls show towards me about how I should take care of myself but I would appreciate more people would ignore my dark rings and ask about my life. I guess I see love that way.

BSF is getting exciting but tiring and it's draining to stick to the commitment. But I'm holding on cos it's barely first 2 months. I shouldn't be complaining.

Happy Easter! My first sunrise service ever was fun. Because service was to start at 630 in the morning, some of us decide to camp a East Coast so we can wake up at 6. Haha. Due to activities and company that caused reluctance to go to bed, plus the humid weather and hard ground, somehow sleeping at home would have been many times more restful. But it was still fun.

Service was really exciting. The way everything was set up with Pastor talking in the front led me to visualise how Jesus spoke in front of a crowd. Then after service we had games. We refering to those below 30. I think age is catching up because I left with many injuries. I don't know if this has anything to do with age but I think it does.

Over the weekend, I had gone swimming at mid day, and spent a whole sunny morning by the beach, I had turned twice darker. The beautician is gonna scream at me if she knew I spent hours burning my skin.

My food blog is up! Please visit whenever and contribute if you wish to. I hope it won't be me talking to cyberspace. I know I'm not the most popular. Still, I hope it can be made active. Who know's eventually I can afford to make it an official website. So please visit Food Lover's Soul. It's listed under 'friends' in my sidebar too. It's still under contruction though, so expect changes here and there.

I can't run these couple of days due to reasons foreseen. I remember the impulsive little girl I was with that nothing-can-stop-me demeanor. So I would still do sports and what-nots. Now, I am more sensible.. or not. Cos I'm whining about the pathetic plight that I almost never look forward to.