It could have been worse

I almost got too lazy to even blog.

For some reason, it always seem like it's my fault for bad things. Grandpa has been diagnosed for almost 2 weeks now. There hasn't been a proper discussion or consensus as to what we will do for him. Everyone's too busy being selfish and pointing fingers.. at me. And might I add being sarcastic and hypocritical.

I got my work ‘stolen’. It happened when someone imitated my work and passed it off as hers and got all the credit for it. I still believe that it wasn’t intentional but I figured she should have a little more sense. Anyway, I kept quiet throughout because just last week I learnt in BSF that our deeds should be done in quiet. And it almost happened again this week.

It’s really tragic when people look at Christians and then say “I’d rather not go to church”. The church I’m working with consists of youths like that. On one occasion, when there was a lesson going on in the classroom, a youth barged in demanded for the projector that was granted for our use. When being asked to leave or seek permission before using our classrooms, they would say “we’re from the church and have the rights to these rooms”. Once a girl, supposedly the pastor’s daughter did the same thing. When we asked her to seek permission, she retorted “I’m the pastor’s daughter you know”. If you’re the pastor’s daughter you wouldn’t be acting like a princess? These youths are enough for me to steer clear from the church. Just what is the church coming to?

Perhaps from all the conflicts and unhappiness, I have a strange feeling of dissatisfaction. When I think of certain people I get a negative feeling.

I have to appreciate Jami for having dinner with me. It is a privilege eating with you. :)

It's a bit like hell

That was last week and it doesn't look like it's ending. Well last week was bad, though not the worst. It started with irritating events in the office, my students showing sudden bouts of rude attitude (I would honestly smack them if I was their mom). And then there were too many conflicts at home, at work, in my personal relationships, too many to count. I thought I might explode. The whole of last week was like deceit, putting a happy front despite having angry thoughts coupled with annoyance. Is this what patience is?

Last week, grandpa was diagnose to have renal failure, that's failure of the kidney. He is 94 and each day I hear him praying for God to take him home.

Finally half of my room is packed. I brutally threw away many things, that are non-sentimental or that I've forgotten it's existence. Even while packing, I turned grumpy and touchy. At least I'm happy with my desk almost empty.

There's much talk about church camp. Honestly, I'm not looking forward to it.

What truly irritates designers

It's absolutely annoying when you've completed a nice piece of work and then someone comes up and say "aiya I also can. In fact, no need so difficult. I use Word or PP can already" and then earnestly tries to imitate your work with MS Word or PP.

Why don't we render all designers obsolete then? People don't seem to know or appreciate the fact that each element of a piece of work is being carefully treated and placed. People somehow just think it’s easy, no sweat. For every piece of professional work, font was carefully chosen, pictures carefully treated and adjusted, page elements aligned precisely. All these take tons of time and effort and mostly go unnoticed.

It’s particularly frustrating when someone just says, “eh I can design also, use Word can already, no big deal”. Oh yeah? No big deal? Bet you didn’t even know research has to be done on target audience before design gets started. Oh wait, do you even know the existence of Photoshop or is Word your trusty programme for all your gimmicks.

And I’ve heard this even in my previous job in Oculus. Clients just come and say “my clerk also can do”. It’s so incredibly irritating. If your clerk can do all these, she wouldn’t be a clerk? Why are designers being picked on for such belittling childish attitude? Somehow I attribute this to the subjective nature of design itself. There’s no absolute in design, no right or wrong, and it just gives people the justification to fault anything.

Whatever it is, it’s just plain disrespectful toward the designer when his or her work is being taken lightly. If you think you can do a better job then don’t approach the designer to start with.

Life wouldn't really be worth living without God

There are like a thousand reasons why I want to kill myself and one reason why I wouldn't. Random thought.

Pass few weeks was fretting over work and progression of things in the care centre. We just hired a principal. Three cheers! Now we have to hope she's not like the previous one. Ideas are going stale and disappearing, that ain't helping my design work very much.

I've been through first interview with Lasalle to entre the Theartre Arts course. I'm getting half-hearted, a little unsure about what would come out of it. Not very confident. Hopefully, hope to the Dance course won't get as much disappointment.

Birthdays and more birthdays. Recently, we celebrated many birthdays, one of them being a 21st. The party was very big and resmebled a church wedding. I guess Yin Ting's the sort who'd invite the whole world to share her joy. We sucessfully pulled off a small surprise for Terence, Lawrence and Yin Ting. We wished for Ms Lam to be part of it but ah well. Anyway, it's so fun to pull a good one on somebody. Surprises are always fun, no?

Nightmares and more nightmares recently. Not all are vivid but you know your dream wasn't a good one when you wake up feeling crappy. The vivid ones were like probably all my insecurities. At least I know how crappy it feels if it happens.

Happy Birthday Terence!

Step Up 2 The Streets

Following the hit Step Up in 2006, Step Up 2 The Streets features a young rebellious street dancer called Andie (Briana Evigan) who tries to fit into the Maryland School of the Arts, where everything seems refined and out of her league. There, she met Chase (Robert Hoffman), the hottest and one of the most talented dancers in the school.

Before entering the school, Andie was part of a crew that trains and dances at illegal street dance competitions. After being kicked out, Chase had encouraged her to start her own crew with the hidden talents in the school.

After going through a rather cliché storyline with very cliché themes of lower-class vs refine and boy meets girl, the movie is rendered excellent because of the dance scenes that take up a good half of the duration of the movie.

At the end of it, you feel that unreal inspiration of pursuing your wildest dreams despite all, just like the crew who ‘feared no expulsion’, abandoned the school’s fundraising and went to the streets.

Step Up 2 The Streets